So, I was at the eye doctor yesterday and they asked me how many hours per day I spend in front of a screen. Totaling my computer screen time (work, and home internetting), tv screen time (oh trashy mind-numbing tv how I love you) and random other assorted screens that cross my path on a daily basis, I am putting that figure at around 10ish. Yes, a full 10 hours of my day I am dedicated to responding to emails, reading articles, Facebook stalking, watching America’s Next Top Model, and texting (very slowly). Which brings me to my point: What am I doing with my life? What is this sedentary screen-viewing about? Don’t get me wrong, I love TV. And, of course, the internet. I would be lost without these things (Hurricane IKE has proven this point). But. What can I possibly be learning and gaining from being in front of a screen for 10 hours a day?
I frequently find myself at work--or trying to fall asleep at night on my Tempurpedic wonderfulness, or shampooing my hair--pondering ‘How did I end up here?’ What have I achieved? What is my purpose? Who am I? What’s the deal?
I’m sure I’m not the only one. Actually, I know I’m not. These are strange times. I know lots of people are stopping and thinking about their lives right now--their careers and what keeps them going. Maybe this IS time for a change. And change is good.
I am a people-pleaser to the core. Maybe it’s my only child-ness. I want everyone to be happy and comfortable and to like me. I rearrange my words and sometimes even my accent to hopefully make you like me more. Why do I do this? Not sure. But I know that if you talk Southern to a Southerner, they’re nicer to you. And if you say “I’m keen to” to someone in the UK, you get your point across more than saying “I’d like to.” Mimicking behaviors (or behaviours, depending) is something I’m pretty sure I do without even noticing. So, when I sat down to start this blog I thought—how do I want to present this? How do I want to frame this? I am not able to be Southern, and girly, and snarky and nerdy all at once. I will just be me. 100% me. Which is really freeing, ya know? For now, this is just an outlet to say what I want to say.
I am having a particularly STRANGE day today. It’s been one of those days. Where I feel particularly lost about my place in the universe and what I should be doing to find my place and be contented. And writing seems to help me feel more connected, more me.
Some of the most fabulous and exciting people I know have their own blogs. And they inspire me. So I am jumping on the bandwagon, hoping to figure this all out and find what I’m looking for…
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